sʎɐp ǝsǝɥʇ ɟlǝsʎɯ ɯ,I ʞuıɥʇ ʇ,uop I
See what I mean- I'm upside down! I am distressed with having no clue what to write my published story on- the pressure of everything seems so intense right now...
I'm running with feelings of unworthiness- I mean really I'm nobody- just another writer, someone who wants to create- a person who wants to give something to the world that's enjoyable in some degree but is true to myself.
Last night in my short writing session I wrote:
"who am I kidding I'm not good enough to be published"
My argument with myself went something like this...
Me: "But I am published in poetry-"
Inner self:" That's only poetry"
Me: "but it was hard to write that and get it right"
Inner self: "But its not a ten page story"
Me: "Good point"
Ugh! I keep going in circles still coming up with no ideas for a short ten page story or even two short stories...or even ten poems!
However I have found some great exercises that I hope will help me out a little.
what I would really like to do is get the rough draft for the anthology done before NaNo starts that way I'm not competing with two stories plus school and kids. But there are only a few weeks left and my brain is like mush when it comes to new ideas.
I attempted to look at old ideas for a possible rewrite- but I'm not interested in them and I want something new and that I can be proud of....my manly man says I'm making it to hard, and that maybe I need to drop down a few levels and think simpler about it.
But reality is I'm a writer- and well my writer brain says... "make it worth getting into the anthology."
Anyone feel like chocolate ice-cream and Tinkerbell videos?