If I had to describe myself, it would be in a word that has many meanings with a complexity which falls off the tongue.
A word made up of many elements, is deceptive in appearance, and creates an illusion from the imagination.
My word would be Phantasmagoric. ~Summer Ross

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Tuesdays "In their own words" Salina Fayn

My name is Salina Fayn. These nightmares Andy speaks of have been in my family for at least two generations. My mother, Alice, used to go on and on about them and the soul city. I stopped paying attention when I was 16. I met Andy's father Richard Fayn then and he helped me through my own nightmares and he helped me get into the doctor for sleeping pills.

 I knew I wanted a family when I fell for him, a home, and security. Everything my mother never had. My mother and I argued a lot about my role in this family. She wanted me to search out the city, but I wanted more. You know she actually called me selfish! Hell, selfish would be my mothers middle name. All she ever did was research for that damn city, for a nightmare. She should have been more of a mother. She should have been there for me like Richard was.

I used to believe my mom was crazy until Andy hit 15 and started having the same damn nightmares.I got her into my Doctor, I gave her sleeping pills to help her past them even, until one night she refused them. We haven't really communicated much since then.

Once she bought her own car, she was gone, off to different libraries doing research, just like my mom. I hated that we didn't talk, but I refuse to help her in this. I want better for her you know? Andy is so intelligent and could make a real good life for herself if she put half as much effort into it that she puts into this research. I keep hoping she'll meet some nice boy and come home, but my Andy has a mind of her own you know?
Don't get me wrong, I admire her determination, but I don't want to see her alone and crazy.

14 comments:

Jen said...

This was awesome Summer!!! I loved that you shared it!!! Great piece!

BTW - Thanks for the thoughts on my new blog look! You are so sweet to say it looks a little bland in regards to my personality! I'm glad that you think I'm more fun (I'd like to think I am!) I'll definitely be improving it more over the next few weeks to make it more of my own, but I am at least enjoying the new layout!

L. Diane Wolfe said...

Lot of angst in this character.

Elaine AM Smith said...

Grandmother, mother and daughter, all divided by their gifts. You caught the flavour of what each woman felt about their destiny.

Summer Ross said...

Jen-- you are more than welcome and you are fun.

L. Diane-- there sure is, shes torn.

Elaine-- thank you, I was hoping I would be able to show some of it.

L'Aussie said...

Yes, Summer, lots of angst in this piece..:D

Lynda Young said...

Loved this. I want to know more about the city. I loved the voice in this.

Jennie Bailey said...

Summer you are so brave to share! I really like this. Each daughter has a mind of their own and we don't always live up to our parents expectations of us. Their "roles" don't have to be ours. I love that Andy refused the pills and decided she would go research. The tension in this piece with each generation is great!

Susan Fields said...

Very interesting! This sounds like a fascinating story - I definitely want to know more about this nightmares.

Summer Ross said...

L'Aussie-- thank you

Lynda--The city is a strange, wonderful, and horrible place right now...winks...

Jennie-- I'm so glad you got the idea of each daughter having a different idea.

Susan-- I haven't delved to deep into the nightmares, but I'm thinking I might after this. :)

RaShelle said...

Hey Summer - Thanks for following me. It's fun to share your work. It makes everything more real. Right??? Same middle name. Cool. And I love fairies too.

Roland D. Yeomans said...

She must be young to have so much angst. As you get older, you just get weary and resigned. So I've been told -- the eternally young Roland

Cleverly Inked said...

Wow, really want to read more

Talli Roland said...

You got me hooked, Summer! I'm very intrigued now about these nightmares!

Piedmont Writer said...

It's beautiful. Came out just the way it should have.

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